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I wanna see it burn
The wasted mind the plastic world
With all the substance sucked out
Whatās the point
Shoveling coal into a furnace
In a vessel with a tear in the hole
When every forming eyes infected with
Some pornographic nightmare
Growing pissing on the ashes
The ones who set the stage
CH.
It seems this realizations esoteric
When arts only about a profit
Whatās cheap to make and satisfies the rotting mind
When partying and getting laid
Becomes the first priority
The novegoched the cavalcade of tragedy
Weāre just waiting for the bomb
Mainstream, music, television
Itās just a distraction (x6)
To keep you from noticing
The innocent buried in your front yard
The fragments of bones
Beneath the white picket fences
Que the moral guidelines
To fit the current profitable trends
With all the feeling gone
You can barely call it art
The wild ones would never walk into the bullet
But to fit the mold
We would cut our hearts out
Lead the cash cow to the slaughter
We ache for something real
The emptiness tempts me, I feel paranoid,
with millions of noises, I still hear its voice
try to numb it, avoid it, to kill it or poison it,
till it's destroyed but it still doesn't fill up the void
it always feels like something's missing
But i don't know what it is and I'm stuck in this tunnel vision,
While there's millions of children still sick and hunger-stricken
I'm just sitting back and waiting for these fuckin' drugs to kick in
as the plot just thickens, the clock is ticking away
and the cost of living is raised, but not the minimum wage
and I'm so sick of this basement I've been sitting for days in
With a loaded revolver and this abyss that i gaze in
And the chasm gazing back is awful hard to distinguish
from the darkness once the spark inside my heart is extinguished
so I'll relinquish my convictions in the face of resistance, I mean,
dead or alive, it really doesn't make any difference, it seems
CH (x2)
Weāre just waiting for the bomb (x3)
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She said Iāve got two kids and a grave plot
Right next to my day job
And my husbands grave is parallel to mine
And when we die weāll go to heaven
Cause we spent our whole lives begginā
For mercy from some old man in the sky
I said well doesnāt that seem silly
When theres so much left to see and do
Donāt get me wrong
Just be yourself
But darlinā bet if I were you
I go on cut my loses, burn the bills
Say fuck the bosses
And live a life adventurous and new
Well I met a college student
At the library last week
Eating adderall and cramminā for a test
He said Iām sorry but I canāt talk right now
If I donāt get a 4.0 Iāll never get a good job like my dad
I said donāt work for your entire life
Just to save up for a coffin
Donāt put too much stake in your grades and rank
Just realize and remember
Thereās other places to travel to
Then your job, the supermarket and the bank
Donāt waste your best years
Just livinā for somebody else
Donāt waste your best years
Just hidden behind a desk
Donāt waste your best years
Theyāre the only ones youāll ever get
So why not play life closer to the chest
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Note Idol
02:44
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I cant decide between what i love and Whats good for me
The beaten path is so calm and safe and warm
Just the thought of familiar streets makes my stomach churn
A house is not always a home
CH
May we never die bored may we never grow old
May we never die sick may we always live bold
Sometimes I miss the calm and I miss a home
But I love to rage and I love to roam
And i hate the fucking stench of languid air
Sure a roof and bed and meal is nice
But hell Iām a man who likes to roll the dice
So i think Iāll take my chances livinā
Instead of just survivinā even if its a shorter life so
CH
And Iāve made up my mind now Iāll never stop movinā
To settles to give in to welcome the tomb
And Iād rather thrive in the scars
And burns bite marks and bruises
Than wither away in some small white walled room
Cause the stable the stagnant the sickening still
The death-like serenity's poised for the kill
My mind soul and body
How quickly they atrophy introduced back to that bane (plague)
Called complacency
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4. |
Saturday Night Palsy
02:54
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My mind's a malicious predator
Always poised to attack
Constantly creating worry
To weight my weary back
Self medicating only works so long
And then I lapse
Into a solipsistic coma
Cause the stress is just too much for me to grasp
With money and dependency
Relationships and obligations
Sometimes it's too much
And i just wanna fucking die
Curl up with a bottle of everclear
A sandwich baggie full of pills
Salute good riddance to the day
And slip into the night
Into a place
CH.
Where the past is the past
And what's done is done
And the only concern we have is having fun
Where the cops all turn their heads the other way
Whenever shit gets way too heavy
And I feel Iām all alone
I just remember that some day
Iāll make an urn or cast my home
Though it might seem morbid
I find comfort in the fact
That the stress and pain we feel in this life
Wonāt much longer last
CH. (x3)
Where the past is the past
And what's done is done
And the only concern we have is having fun
When all the cops are corpses and weāre free
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5. |
Self-Loathing
02:47
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All my heroes are human
And my gods are all dead
And hopes hard to find
So Iāll hide out in bed
I harbor a hatred
For anyone left with
A fragment of a smile
I sewed on the bottle
And that didnāt help
It only brought clarity
Back to this hell
It made me confront me
That maybe I might need
A break from myself for a while
CH.
And now I know myself a bit too well
And Iām not sure I like what Iāve become
Self loathing is overwhelming
Every mirror is a loaded gun
The past is the past
And whatās done is done
Thereās no takinā back
All the times Iāve fucked up
I misplaced my hatred
And traded in love
For a feeling so fleeting
And countless apologizes
Cause Iām not one for much
To learn from my mistakes
I tend to hide behind the habits I canāt shake
If you really knew me
Iām not sure youād like me
So Iāll remain concealed in regret
CH.
Can we change or are our ways too set in stone (x4)
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First breath you taste when you wake up tomorrow
Will taste worse than it ever has before
I was hoping you were staying around
And I came to as soon as you
Closed the door behind you
I donāt care anymore
Crazy how things change Iām not who I was before
But I kept the name
Of an exhausted insomniac
Who finally worried herself to sleep
Iām too tired to react
To all of the promises you didnāt keep
Take a look at the sky when you wake up tomorrow
And tell me if you see anything
Looked up once or twice this week and it was empty
I put lightbulb outside the window
To make it look like the sun was shining
But it donāt shine here anymore
Hasnāt in these parts for a while
Nobody goes out doors
Not even to play with their inner child
Everyone is already scared
Iām gonna make them jump, cry, wail, and scream
Nobody came prepared
They were distracted by what they believe
What they believe means nothing to me
Anyone can write books for a living
To me itās all a scheme
To get everyone to see one vision
I may be a jackass if I say so myself
I will make it rain on your parade
Sitting in the corner rocking back and forth
Telling myself not to be afraid
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7. |
Insta Mental Breakdown
02:27
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I had a dream last night
Of an old man and a little girl
Who lived in a rickety old house
With a hundred other people
And they would move this house
From town to town
Every night they would settle somewhere new
The little girl would fall down stairs
And hurt herself from the ruckus of the old house
So she went up to the old man
Shaking on a ledge and asked
āWill I ever stop stumbling?ā
The old man looked at the little girl and said
āYou were never meant to be here
Your bones were made for the riches of life
But you got lost and ended up here
But as you grow and as you fall
Your bones will become strong
And soon you will call this place your home.ā
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8. |
Devil's Hour
04:17
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Now Iām weighing out my options
But the devilās hours growing near
Restless legs keep shakinā
I donāt know how long I can stay here
Cause every city and in between
All feels the same to me
I swear this life
Will be the death of me
No matter what I do or say
Selfless selfish itās all the same
Blood, sweat, and tears
Countless years
Branded, hands tied, disrespected
Letās see how far
This dead horse can fall
CH.
Cause youāre too crazy to love
Thatās what you always said to me
As you pressed your body close to mine
You tried to break all the good still left in me
Iāll crawl farther than youāve walked
Now watch me pick it up
Rage against the tattered planks
Sifting through the cesspool
Of forgotten memories
And trudge through the fallen pillars
Of a city built to crumble
As we waste away
Prioritize and memorize
A script to fit the string of lies
Just forgotten numbers
On a windmill of corpses
Well Iāve stumbled from your shadow
No longer property
To your hateful schemes
Translucent bones have turned to steel
To pity the weak fool
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Wholesale Failure
02:51
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WHAT THE FUCK?!
Does it matter if i live or die once im dead the sky will
STILL BE BLUE
āCause iām no catalyst for change just another breathing thing
Takinā up a bit oā room
Everythingās so fucked itās comical
Waking ups a drag
And the worst parts that i know this isnāt even close
To how devastatingly bad everything is gonna get
Lifeās a joke iām anticipating the punchline
Iām drunk so iām just fine but soon iāll be sober and broke
Down and out for the Nth time and all aloooooone
And i welcome writers block with wide open arms
Because if iām not writing iām happy
Writing is just an escape from the day to day tragedy
I find surrounds me
So WHAT THE FUCK?!
Would it matter if we just quit breathing our hearts could cease beating
And WHOāD THINK TWICE?!
Lifeās a gamble and tomorrowās never promised
So fuck it i say letās roll the dice
Everythingās so fucked itās comical waking ups a drag
And the worst parts that i know this isnāt even close
To how devastatingly sad everything is gonna get
Well iām payinā outta pocket for wholesale failure (he said it!! He said the title!!)
And every little victory feels so underwhelming
When all that i can think about is how the story ends
And all the lessons that iāve yet to learn
Thereās the future the past and weāre stuck in between
In the only place that i feel comfortable if i could freeze
Every second hand bet
That i would before everything goes to hell in a handbag
But time will keep on tickinā
And the earth wonāt soon quit spinninā
Despite what we want who we are what we fear
What we feel someday we all must die
Take one more breath and say goodbye
So WHY THE FUCK?!
Do we obsess over success and failure
As long as weāre breathing weāre all alright
So hereās to conceding iām aware now iām part of the plight
Everythingās so fucked itās comical waking ups a drag
But the best parts that right now weāre still alive
We can restart we can dive into the lives we want
And make the best of the time that weāve got left!!
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10. |
Days N Daze of Our Lives
03:16
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Thinkinā back thinkinā back to the good days
I realized they were shit days
And I was just too hammered to notice
A moment of sobriety sure sheds
A lot of light upon the truth
Once upon a time
I truly thought you were our friend
But it turns out you're a black hole
You consume till nothing's left
You project your insecurities on others
And it makes me fucking sick
All we did was give and give
And all you did was take
You told us that you cared about us
Youāre a fucking fake
Cause in your eyes your Jesus Christ
Yeah Iām so sure
CH
You drive me crazy
You drive me to drink
I hope you drive your car off a cliff
You self obsessed asshole
I was so much better off after you split
You drive me insane
You drive me out of my head
If itās between living with you and death
Iām better off dead
I sincerely hope our paths never cross again
I hate to say but Iād find it entertaining
If you sat on a tack or got stuck in the rain
Or if you got super high
Went and bought lucky charms
When you poured yourself a bowl
All the marshmallows were gone
Every Time you play guitar
I hope you break A & G
Every Time you find a 40 oz
Its filled up with my pee
I hate to say I wish these things on you
But you deserve it cause thereās no excuse
To be such an aloof and shitty person
All we did was give and give
And all you did was take
You told us that you cared about us
Youāre a fucking fake
Cause in your eyes your Jesus Christ
Yeah Iām so sure
CH
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Save a life kill a cop
badges shine while bodies drop
red and blue light floods the streets
highlights another tragedy
you reached for your ID too quick
now you're just another statistic
another innocent in a pool of blood
I guarantee that pig'll walk
Better mind your p's and q's
or johnny law will come for you
their power trippin terrorists
they feed off your obedience
so prick your ears up know your rights
chew your leash off join the fight
CH
They don't serve and protect you
they'll kill and neglect you
to them their the boot you're the bug
They don't serve and protect you
they'll kill and neglect you
so go save a life kill a cop
Oh all these cops
Theyāre all the same
With racist laws and lead starved brains
These nightmare nation
Stole black lives still murder āem
And our classless dreams
These police should mind what we say
We live for justice
So they must die today
CH
How many more new stories
do you need to fucking see
until you realize that the enemy
is the murderous police
sure you can turn a blind eye
til it happens to somebody that you love
this problem it's a real one
it affects both you and me
the police are getting out of hand
it don't take much to see
the system that's flawed
bound to end in catastrophe
CH
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12. |
Little Blue Pills Pt. 4
04:01
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I wish that i could stay with you
Iām dyinā havinā dreams of you
You were a diamond in the rough
Right when the times were gettinā tough
I swear to fuckinā god ya saved my life
I was about to give a bj to a double barrel bloody up a knife
But now at least i have one memory
That doesnāt make me suicidal
Needles donāt seem quite as present
Alcohol aināt such a bother
Cause now the only high i chase Iāll only catch by gettinā back to you
Bounced around from town to town
Always settled to rebound
Never found the time to realize what made me happy
Suddenly Iām pushing 80
Heartstrings bent my heart is racing
Just to crash into that abandoned dead end quarry
But at least I felt something to call me lucky
A light that shined so bright just to blind me
Forever will I sing that I love you
CH
Love is just a breeze
In the middle of a hurricane
Restitch the timeline and I swear that weād both go insane
Engaged to death got nothinā left
But everything will be alright
And Iāve been told before I fall in love too easy
But lifeās too short to beat around the bush believe me
How can ya blame me for knowinā what i want
Itās been forever since i let myself be vulnerable
And itās terrifying ācause the years of hatred took their toll
Is it really fuckinā possible for once i have a chance to just be happy
I heard that broken record sing
Between the lines of you and me
Trapped beneath the discourse
Of lifeās untold tragedies
I gambled hands against my life
Came up short too many times
Awoke to find the ghost of who I was before
Love and Hate, Sadness and Rage
Iāve learned to find my own sunshine
Through these cloudy fucked up times
The gears are moving forward
To a future calm with less disorder
In this lonesome heart of mine
(Jesse) When Iām eating pills on a piss stained mattress
Floating on an ocean of empty bottles of booze
In a trashed out room hungover as fuck
And Iāve lost count of the days
When Iām at my lowest youāre always there to pick me up
Youāre the wind at my sails when i wanna give up
Youāve given me a peace of mind
That once upon a time
I never thought Iād find until in silent acquiescence
I did rest my eyes to die but now were together and so alive
(Whitney) Eating pills on a pissed stained mattress
Radio transmitter has turned to static
Iām lying awake to a past I canāt replace
And Iāve lost count of the days
Staggered through
A rough few months to a rough few years
A lonesome heart gets buried to grow something brand new
CH
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13. |
World War 3
02:45
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Sit down n eat your supper and gaze at the evening news
Another riot started up today across the globe from
But until the tear gas shatters through a window of your home
Youāll just sit back relax and say itās not your problem
Another innocent killed by a cop today
But hey i guess thats just the way things go
Another school another gun
Another hundred dead another horrid tragedy
That could've been prevented
An open talk a gun safe lock
A million solutions but no one took the time
Cause surely itāll never happen to them
Another bullied kid took a gun to school today
But hey i guess thatās just the way things go
CH:
The next world war is just around the corner
Blinded by the glitz and glam disease
Sirens wail the anthem of a generation frozen in apathy
You canāt just change the channel with the war at your doorstep
Whit: you canāt deny thereās bliss in ignorance
But you canāt ignore a fuckinā bullet lodged inside your chest
Whitney: You canāt deny thereās bliss in ignorance
But you canāt ignore a fucking bullet
Lodged inside your chest
Je-C: if we donāt do somethinā soon weāre fucked
Weāll be bringinā up our kids in a warzone ācause weāre livinā in a timebomb
Tick tick tickinā away and itās so much easier to stay inside
And stay docile and just deny that all the while
We couldāve been the fix but fed the problem and now maybe itās too late
YYAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!
CH
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14. |
Anchor
03:07
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Blacked out nights and tragic letters
Empty pockets distorted pleasures
This winters lasted years it seems
I gave up once to give up twice
Still searching for some good advice
Iām a fool now that itās over
How many times will it take
Itās about none of you This one falls on me
And my calloused hands
Pull shards of glass from my bedside
Prayin on my kneesLord have mercy on me
CH.
So print it out and put it on display
This life is just a massacre of insolent dismay
When i close my eyes
At the death of the sunrise
I know yes I know
Itās not my turn
Not my turn to die
Got scattered coins on a bridge thatās burning
Blood drenched sky on my white wedding
Iād like to take this time to sincerely apologize
I had bottled thoughts I was drinking
Crushed up pain was cuttin
The stories all the same
Shifting seasons fall for change
And my sleeping child she still breaths
Buried under scarred flesh Trapt in my memories
While my calloused hands
Pull shards of glass on my bedside
Prayinā on my knees No one will have mercy on me
CH.
I got blacked out nights and tragic letters
Empty pockets distorted pleasures
This winters lasted years
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Too many friends are asleep inside pine boxes
Suicide by abuse of a toxins
Cause itās easier to run away
Then to deal with the bullshit of the day to day
And I really canāt blame you
Most days itās hard to find a scrap of hope
Shouldāve been there to help you cope
But I was locked up in the brig
Of the same damn boat
CH.
Why should I sugarcoat it
Weāre all gonna die
If we escape the coarse easily coerced
I guarantee next time
I see you youāll be strapped down to a bed
All cloaked in white
Rotting from the inside out beneath fluorescent lights
So
For the love of god do as I say not as I do
I may not care about myself
But I care about you
Kid Iāve been there and Iāve done that
It aināt pretty it aināt worth it
So trust me stay the fuck away
And youāll be okay
These lives are only ours to live
These sins are just ours to forgive
This stigma might wear thin
A life in pain, a love in vain
The veins & skin all weathered from a pin
You never felt desire, might cast your soul on fire
You canāt understand their fear, ____ you refuse see them clearer
Victims of this crooked game, (all) trapped inside a world insane,
You cast aside, mere shadows in a funhouse mirror
CH.
Lifeās a minefield a treacherous road
Call me selfish but I donāt want to travel it alone
So burn the crutches and mend the bones
Cause weāve still got so many miles to go
Stay awake stay alive
we've been building our demons
through the comfort of lies
with injections and bottles
we poison the mind
but don't crumble beneath
stay awake stay alive
Stay awake stay alive
think of all of us here left behind
I know it's painful
the sickness contrived
but you're stronger than you know
so put up a fightā
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16. |
Crustfall
04:38
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I can no longer discern
Whether the sun is rising
Or if its setting inching closer to my own demising
Becomes so apparent what's important to me
You can say it sounds cliche
But friends all come and go away
My familyās been here to stay
They stuck with me through darker days
When I was brownin out
And fallinā out and fuckinā up
They stuck around to help me out
And never once gave up on me
I donāt know maybe they shouldāve
Shit ya know I sure as hell wouldāve
Iāll never possess the poise
It takes to deal with me
Cause Iām a thief, a drunk, a cheat, a liar
Beneath my deathbed awaits that fire
Cause Iāve wasted time
Tryin to find whatās so simple to see
That worldās a scary fucked up place
To on your own have to navigate
So to the people who compose my compass
A few words to you
CH.
Well I know times runnin out
So before ya lay my body down
Before ya dress me up
And drop me six feet down
I wanna make sure that you know
I love you and thanks for puttin up
With all my shit
Weāre all just thrown into this world
Expected to exist
To carve a niche and carry on
Without slitting your wrists
But when the stress is just too much
To grasp without any support
Your mind will splinter
Verging on collapse
You're walking in a corpse
When the chips are down
Itās nice to have somebody in your corner
Just to have your back
And tell you everything will be alright
It fucking kills me that Iāve ever
Taken my loved ones for granted
Itās true what they say
You donāt know what youāve got until itās gone
The one thing I fear the most
Is losing anyone I care about
To only ever get to see
them smile in old photographs
The scribbles on our epitaphs
May not be set in stone
I know sometimes itās hard for me to show it
I love you more than you will ever know it
CH.
Well I know times runnin out
So before ya lay my body down
Before ya dress me up
Commit me to the ground
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