I wanna see it burn The wasted mind the plastic world With all the substance sucked out What’s the point Shoveling coal into a furnace In a vessel with a tear in the hole When every forming eyes infected with Some pornographic nightmare Growing pissing on the ashes The ones who set the stage CH. It seems this realizations esoteric When arts only about a profit What’s cheap to make and satisfies the rotting mind When partying and getting laid Becomes the first priority The novegoched the cavalcade of tragedy We’re just waiting for the bomb Mainstream, music, television It’s just a distraction (x6) To keep you from noticing The innocent buried in your front yard The fragments of bones Beneath the white picket fences Que the moral guidelines To fit the current profitable trends With all the feeling gone You can barely call it art The wild ones would never walk into the bullet But to fit the mold We would cut our hearts out Lead the cash cow to the slaughter We ache for something real The emptiness tempts me, I feel paranoid, with millions of noises, I still hear its voice try to numb it, avoid it, to kill it or poison it, till it's destroyed but it still doesn't fill up the void it always feels like something's missing But i don't know what it is and I'm stuck in this tunnel vision, While there's millions of children still sick and hunger-stricken I'm just sitting back and waiting for these fuckin' drugs to kick in as the plot just thickens, the clock is ticking away and the cost of living is raised, but not the minimum wage and I'm so sick of this basement I've been sitting for days in With a loaded revolver and this abyss that i gaze in And the chasm gazing back is awful hard to distinguish from the darkness once the spark inside my heart is extinguished so I'll relinquish my convictions in the face of resistance, I mean, dead or alive, it really doesn't make any difference, it seems CH (x2) We’re just waiting for the bomb (x3)

She said I’ve got two kids and a grave plot Right next to my day job And my husbands grave is parallel to mine And when we die we’ll go to heaven Cause we spent our whole lives beggin’ For mercy from some old man in the sky I said well doesn’t that seem silly When theres so much left to see and do Don’t get me wrong Just be yourself But darlin’ bet if I were you I go on cut my loses, burn the bills Say fuck the bosses And live a life adventurous and new Well I met a college student At the library last week Eating adderall and crammin’ for a test He said I’m sorry but I can’t talk right now If I don’t get a 4.0 I’ll never get a good job like my dad I said don’t work for your entire life Just to save up for a coffin Don’t put too much stake in your grades and rank Just realize and remember There’s other places to travel to Then your job, the supermarket and the bank Don’t waste your best years Just livin’ for somebody else Don’t waste your best years Just hidden behind a desk Don’t waste your best years They’re the only ones you’ll ever get So why not play life closer to the chest

I cant decide between what i love and Whats good for me The beaten path is so calm and safe and warm Just the thought of familiar streets makes my stomach churn A house is not always a home CH May we never die bored may we never grow old May we never die sick may we always live bold Sometimes I miss the calm and I miss a home But I love to rage and I love to roam And i hate the fucking stench of languid air Sure a roof and bed and meal is nice But hell I’m a man who likes to roll the dice So i think I’ll take my chances livin’ Instead of just survivin’ even if its a shorter life so CH And I’ve made up my mind now I’ll never stop movin’ To settles to give in to welcome the tomb And I’d rather thrive in the scars And burns bite marks and bruises Than wither away in some small white walled room Cause the stable the stagnant the sickening still The death-like serenity's poised for the kill My mind soul and body How quickly they atrophy introduced back to that bane (plague) Called complacency

My mind's a malicious predator Always poised to attack Constantly creating worry To weight my weary back Self medicating only works so long And then I lapse Into a solipsistic coma Cause the stress is just too much for me to grasp With money and dependency Relationships and obligations Sometimes it's too much And i just wanna fucking die Curl up with a bottle of everclear A sandwich baggie full of pills Salute good riddance to the day And slip into the night Into a place CH. Where the past is the past And what's done is done And the only concern we have is having fun Where the cops all turn their heads the other way Whenever shit gets way too heavy And I feel I’m all alone I just remember that some day I’ll make an urn or cast my home Though it might seem morbid I find comfort in the fact That the stress and pain we feel in this life Won’t much longer last CH. (x3) Where the past is the past And what's done is done And the only concern we have is having fun When all the cops are corpses and we’re free

All my heroes are human And my gods are all dead And hopes hard to find So I’ll hide out in bed I harbor a hatred For anyone left with A fragment of a smile I sewed on the bottle And that didn’t help It only brought clarity Back to this hell It made me confront me That maybe I might need A break from myself for a while CH. And now I know myself a bit too well And I’m not sure I like what I’ve become Self loathing is overwhelming Every mirror is a loaded gun The past is the past And what’s done is done There’s no takin’ back All the times I’ve fucked up I misplaced my hatred And traded in love For a feeling so fleeting And countless apologizes Cause I’m not one for much To learn from my mistakes I tend to hide behind the habits I can’t shake If you really knew me I’m not sure you’d like me So I’ll remain concealed in regret CH. Can we change or are our ways too set in stone (x4)

First breath you taste when you wake up tomorrow Will taste worse than it ever has before I was hoping you were staying around And I came to as soon as you Closed the door behind you I don’t care anymore Crazy how things change I’m not who I was before But I kept the name Of an exhausted insomniac Who finally worried herself to sleep I’m too tired to react To all of the promises you didn’t keep Take a look at the sky when you wake up tomorrow And tell me if you see anything Looked up once or twice this week and it was empty I put lightbulb outside the window To make it look like the sun was shining But it don’t shine here anymore Hasn’t in these parts for a while Nobody goes out doors Not even to play with their inner child Everyone is already scared I’m gonna make them jump, cry, wail, and scream Nobody came prepared They were distracted by what they believe What they believe means nothing to me Anyone can write books for a living To me it’s all a scheme To get everyone to see one vision I may be a jackass if I say so myself I will make it rain on your parade Sitting in the corner rocking back and forth Telling myself not to be afraid

I had a dream last night Of an old man and a little girl Who lived in a rickety old house With a hundred other people And they would move this house From town to town Every night they would settle somewhere new The little girl would fall down stairs And hurt herself from the ruckus of the old house So she went up to the old man Shaking on a ledge and asked “Will I ever stop stumbling?” The old man looked at the little girl and said “You were never meant to be here Your bones were made for the riches of life But you got lost and ended up here But as you grow and as you fall Your bones will become strong And soon you will call this place your home.”

Now I’m weighing out my options But the devil’s hours growing near Restless legs keep shakin’ I don’t know how long I can stay here Cause every city and in between All feels the same to me I swear this life Will be the death of me No matter what I do or say Selfless selfish it’s all the same Blood, sweat, and tears Countless years Branded, hands tied, disrespected Let’s see how far This dead horse can fall CH. Cause you’re too crazy to love That’s what you always said to me As you pressed your body close to mine You tried to break all the good still left in me I’ll crawl farther than you’ve walked Now watch me pick it up Rage against the tattered planks Sifting through the cesspool Of forgotten memories And trudge through the fallen pillars Of a city built to crumble As we waste away Prioritize and memorize A script to fit the string of lies Just forgotten numbers On a windmill of corpses Well I’ve stumbled from your shadow No longer property To your hateful schemes Translucent bones have turned to steel To pity the weak fool

WHAT THE FUCK?! Does it matter if i live or die once im dead the sky will STILL BE BLUE ‘Cause i’m no catalyst for change just another breathing thing Takin’ up a bit o’ room Everything’s so fucked it’s comical Waking ups a drag And the worst parts that i know this isn’t even close To how devastatingly bad everything is gonna get Life’s a joke i’m anticipating the punchline I’m drunk so i’m just fine but soon i’ll be sober and broke Down and out for the Nth time and all aloooooone And i welcome writers block with wide open arms Because if i’m not writing i’m happy Writing is just an escape from the day to day tragedy I find surrounds me So WHAT THE FUCK?! Would it matter if we just quit breathing our hearts could cease beating And WHO’D THINK TWICE?! Life’s a gamble and tomorrow’s never promised So fuck it i say let’s roll the dice Everything’s so fucked it’s comical waking ups a drag And the worst parts that i know this isn’t even close To how devastatingly sad everything is gonna get Well i’m payin’ outta pocket for wholesale failure (he said it!! He said the title!!) And every little victory feels so underwhelming When all that i can think about is how the story ends And all the lessons that i’ve yet to learn There’s the future the past and we’re stuck in between In the only place that i feel comfortable if i could freeze Every second hand bet That i would before everything goes to hell in a handbag But time will keep on tickin’ And the earth won’t soon quit spinnin’ Despite what we want who we are what we fear What we feel someday we all must die Take one more breath and say goodbye So WHY THE FUCK?! Do we obsess over success and failure As long as we’re breathing we’re all alright So here’s to conceding i’m aware now i’m part of the plight Everything’s so fucked it’s comical waking ups a drag But the best parts that right now we’re still alive We can restart we can dive into the lives we want And make the best of the time that we’ve got left!!

Thinkin’ back thinkin’ back to the good days I realized they were shit days And I was just too hammered to notice A moment of sobriety sure sheds A lot of light upon the truth Once upon a time I truly thought you were our friend But it turns out you're a black hole You consume till nothing's left You project your insecurities on others And it makes me fucking sick All we did was give and give And all you did was take You told us that you cared about us You’re a fucking fake Cause in your eyes your Jesus Christ Yeah I’m so sure CH You drive me crazy You drive me to drink I hope you drive your car off a cliff You self obsessed asshole I was so much better off after you split You drive me insane You drive me out of my head If it’s between living with you and death I’m better off dead I sincerely hope our paths never cross again I hate to say but I’d find it entertaining If you sat on a tack or got stuck in the rain Or if you got super high Went and bought lucky charms When you poured yourself a bowl All the marshmallows were gone Every Time you play guitar I hope you break A & G Every Time you find a 40 oz Its filled up with my pee I hate to say I wish these things on you But you deserve it cause there’s no excuse To be such an aloof and shitty person All we did was give and give And all you did was take You told us that you cared about us You’re a fucking fake Cause in your eyes your Jesus Christ Yeah I’m so sure CH

Save a life kill a cop badges shine while bodies drop red and blue light floods the streets highlights another tragedy you reached for your ID too quick now you're just another statistic another innocent in a pool of blood I guarantee that pig'll walk Better mind your p's and q's or johnny law will come for you their power trippin terrorists they feed off your obedience so prick your ears up know your rights chew your leash off join the fight CH They don't serve and protect you they'll kill and neglect you to them their the boot you're the bug They don't serve and protect you they'll kill and neglect you so go save a life kill a cop Oh all these cops They’re all the same With racist laws and lead starved brains These nightmare nation Stole black lives still murder ‘em And our classless dreams These police should mind what we say We live for justice So they must die today CH How many more new stories do you need to fucking see until you realize that the enemy is the murderous police sure you can turn a blind eye til it happens to somebody that you love this problem it's a real one it affects both you and me the police are getting out of hand it don't take much to see the system that's flawed bound to end in catastrophe CH

I wish that i could stay with you I’m dyin’ havin’ dreams of you You were a diamond in the rough Right when the times were gettin’ tough I swear to fuckin’ god ya saved my life I was about to give a bj to a double barrel bloody up a knife But now at least i have one memory That doesn’t make me suicidal Needles don’t seem quite as present Alcohol ain’t such a bother Cause now the only high i chase I’ll only catch by gettin’ back to you Bounced around from town to town Always settled to rebound Never found the time to realize what made me happy Suddenly I’m pushing 80 Heartstrings bent my heart is racing Just to crash into that abandoned dead end quarry But at least I felt something to call me lucky A light that shined so bright just to blind me Forever will I sing that I love you CH Love is just a breeze In the middle of a hurricane Restitch the timeline and I swear that we’d both go insane Engaged to death got nothin’ left But everything will be alright And I’ve been told before I fall in love too easy But life’s too short to beat around the bush believe me How can ya blame me for knowin’ what i want It’s been forever since i let myself be vulnerable And it’s terrifying ‘cause the years of hatred took their toll Is it really fuckin’ possible for once i have a chance to just be happy I heard that broken record sing Between the lines of you and me Trapped beneath the discourse Of life’s untold tragedies I gambled hands against my life Came up short too many times Awoke to find the ghost of who I was before Love and Hate, Sadness and Rage I’ve learned to find my own sunshine Through these cloudy fucked up times The gears are moving forward To a future calm with less disorder In this lonesome heart of mine (Jesse) When I’m eating pills on a piss stained mattress Floating on an ocean of empty bottles of booze In a trashed out room hungover as fuck And I’ve lost count of the days When I’m at my lowest you’re always there to pick me up You’re the wind at my sails when i wanna give up You’ve given me a peace of mind That once upon a time I never thought I’d find until in silent acquiescence I did rest my eyes to die but now were together and so alive (Whitney) Eating pills on a pissed stained mattress Radio transmitter has turned to static I’m lying awake to a past I can’t replace And I’ve lost count of the days Staggered through A rough few months to a rough few years A lonesome heart gets buried to grow something brand new CH

Sit down n eat your supper and gaze at the evening news Another riot started up today across the globe from But until the tear gas shatters through a window of your home You’ll just sit back relax and say it’s not your problem Another innocent killed by a cop today But hey i guess thats just the way things go Another school another gun Another hundred dead another horrid tragedy That could've been prevented An open talk a gun safe lock A million solutions but no one took the time Cause surely it’ll never happen to them Another bullied kid took a gun to school today But hey i guess that’s just the way things go CH: The next world war is just around the corner Blinded by the glitz and glam disease Sirens wail the anthem of a generation frozen in apathy You can’t just change the channel with the war at your doorstep Whit: you can’t deny there’s bliss in ignorance But you can’t ignore a fuckin’ bullet lodged inside your chest Whitney: You can’t deny there’s bliss in ignorance But you can’t ignore a fucking bullet Lodged inside your chest Je-C: if we don’t do somethin’ soon we’re fucked We’ll be bringin’ up our kids in a warzone ‘cause we’re livin’ in a timebomb Tick tick tickin’ away and it’s so much easier to stay inside And stay docile and just deny that all the while We could’ve been the fix but fed the problem and now maybe it’s too late YYAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!! CH

Blacked out nights and tragic letters Empty pockets distorted pleasures This winters lasted years it seems I gave up once to give up twice Still searching for some good advice I’m a fool now that it’s over How many times will it take It’s about none of you This one falls on me And my calloused hands Pull shards of glass from my bedside Prayin on my kneesLord have mercy on me CH. So print it out and put it on display This life is just a massacre of insolent dismay When i close my eyes At the death of the sunrise I know yes I know It’s not my turn Not my turn to die Got scattered coins on a bridge that’s burning Blood drenched sky on my white wedding I’d like to take this time to sincerely apologize I had bottled thoughts I was drinking Crushed up pain was cuttin The stories all the same Shifting seasons fall for change And my sleeping child she still breaths Buried under scarred flesh Trapt in my memories While my calloused hands Pull shards of glass on my bedside Prayin’ on my knees No one will have mercy on me CH. I got blacked out nights and tragic letters Empty pockets distorted pleasures This winters lasted years

Too many friends are asleep inside pine boxes Suicide by abuse of a toxins Cause it’s easier to run away Then to deal with the bullshit of the day to day And I really can’t blame you Most days it’s hard to find a scrap of hope Should’ve been there to help you cope But I was locked up in the brig Of the same damn boat CH. Why should I sugarcoat it We’re all gonna die If we escape the coarse easily coerced I guarantee next time I see you you’ll be strapped down to a bed All cloaked in white Rotting from the inside out beneath fluorescent lights So For the love of god do as I say not as I do I may not care about myself But I care about you Kid I’ve been there and I’ve done that It ain’t pretty it ain’t worth it So trust me stay the fuck away And you’ll be okay These lives are only ours to live These sins are just ours to forgive This stigma might wear thin A life in pain, a love in vain The veins & skin all weathered from a pin You never felt desire, might cast your soul on fire You can’t understand their fear, ____ you refuse see them clearer Victims of this crooked game, (all) trapped inside a world insane, You cast aside, mere shadows in a funhouse mirror CH. Life’s a minefield a treacherous road Call me selfish but I don’t want to travel it alone So burn the crutches and mend the bones Cause we’ve still got so many miles to go Stay awake stay alive we've been building our demons through the comfort of lies with injections and bottles we poison the mind but don't crumble beneath stay awake stay alive Stay awake stay alive think of all of us here left behind I know it's painful the sickness contrived but you're stronger than you know so put up a fight​

I can no longer discern Whether the sun is rising Or if its setting inching closer to my own demising Becomes so apparent what's important to me You can say it sounds cliche But friends all come and go away My family’s been here to stay They stuck with me through darker days When I was brownin out And fallin’ out and fuckin’ up They stuck around to help me out And never once gave up on me I don’t know maybe they should’ve Shit ya know I sure as hell would’ve I’ll never possess the poise It takes to deal with me Cause I’m a thief, a drunk, a cheat, a liar Beneath my deathbed awaits that fire Cause I’ve wasted time Tryin to find what’s so simple to see That world’s a scary fucked up place To on your own have to navigate So to the people who compose my compass A few words to you CH. Well I know times runnin out So before ya lay my body down Before ya dress me up And drop me six feet down I wanna make sure that you know I love you and thanks for puttin up With all my shit We’re all just thrown into this world Expected to exist To carve a niche and carry on Without slitting your wrists But when the stress is just too much To grasp without any support Your mind will splinter Verging on collapse You're walking in a corpse When the chips are down It’s nice to have somebody in your corner Just to have your back And tell you everything will be alright It fucking kills me that I’ve ever Taken my loved ones for granted It’s true what they say You don’t know what you’ve got until it’s gone The one thing I fear the most Is losing anyone I care about To only ever get to see them smile in old photographs The scribbles on our epitaphs May not be set in stone I know sometimes it’s hard for me to show it I love you more than you will ever know it CH. Well I know times runnin out So before ya lay my body down Before ya dress me up Commit me to the ground